So, I'm not a monk, but....

Like I said, I'm certainly not a monk but I find this passage inspiring nonetheless. Sometimes, I feel really bad that I'm not moved by the missions and passions of other people I know and respect. I feel guilty for making choices that align with my passions, thinking it's likely that I'm simply more selfish and irresponsible than those who are dedicated and humbled by a greater cause. Though I'm still not wholly convinced that isn't true, this particular conversation in the [insanely long] novel resonated with me. Regardless of your [or my] beliefs about God, the concept that we are all cut from different cloths and are likely to have different aspirations, different passions, different purposes [and that that's okay!] is a crucial concept at this stage in my life. I'm not going to lie, a small part of me feels very selfish for moving to the beach just now. I have considered it my right to make such a choice. ....until I got here and began to think of all the other things I could be doing to help people or how I could have spent the money I spend here for a greater good or how I could still be earning a decent living in order to spend more money and help more people. So perhaps I have selfish reasons for interpreting this excerpt as I have but it helps me to believe that there is a reason that I pushed so hard to get here. A reason that is SO MUCH BIGGER than me and my desires to live in the sunshine and listen to the surf and walk in the sand. Like I said, though, fairly certain that reason is not for me to become a monk. ;)
With much contemplation,
Ever Your Plucky Picaroon

Sarah :: Plucky in Love

Sarah, aka "Plucky", blogs on the reg, unless she's on vacation or there's a Pretty Little Liars marathon or she's mulling over the implications of the phrase "on fleek." She can't live without iced coffee, a portable phone charger, or equal pay. Say hello!

2 comments:

  1. Like you, sometimes I feel guilty because I just am not as selfless as so many of my friends. I want to be driven like them, but at the same time, part of me thinks, I'm not supposed to be. I have different passions, different skills, for a reason. I'll make an impact, just not the same way they do. So I think you were driven to get to the beach for a reason larger than yourself, too.

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  2. I think sometimes we need to be a little selfish or we'll be living someone else's life and not our own. If you feel compelled to make a big life change, like moving to the beach with no plans, then go for it. What do you have to lose? I have always wondered about the book Pillars of the Earth... maybe I'll have to give that book a try sometime soon. :)

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