Feeling Good?

Am I really this okay with this decision or am I numb? And should I even question it?
Maybe it was right, and that's why it feels mostly okay.
Or maybe I'm in denial.
Or maybe.... I could go on for days.
And that begs the question, does it really matter why I'm feeling alright?
I enjoyed a pleasant evening all by my lonesome. I slept like a rock. I woke up feeling refreshed, even if my throat hurts like a mofo.
I've got plans with girlfriends and old friends and new friends this weekend, and next weekend, and the weekend after.
Part of those plans take me to an area at a time that may put he and I in the same place....
What if I see him?
Worse, see him talking to some other girl?
Conversely, what if he sees me talking to some other guy?

Will I still feel okay then?
Or will I want to throw up?
Will I cause a scene?
Or just walk away?

And why can I never let myself just be okay or feel okay without analyzing it to death?
Sometimes, I envy people who let themselves be and don't think too much... but then I guess I wouldn't be me if I didn't think too much. Bah.

It's a vicious cycle.

Sarah :: Plucky in Love

Sarah, aka "Plucky", blogs on the reg, unless she's on vacation or there's a Pretty Little Liars marathon or she's mulling over the implications of the phrase "on fleek." She can't live without iced coffee, a portable phone charger, or equal pay. Say hello!

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